I’m going through SUCH A HARD TIME right now and it’s reflected in how I haven’t been writing here for several months. I’m in a lot of pain, turmoil and stress. My body has physically reacted to my internal distress which has added even more to my challenges. I’ve been forced, for the sake of keeping hold of my sanity, to leave my many troubles to God – as I really have no where else to turn to.
In the midst of my problems, I’m faced with the challenge of having to show remorsefulness whilst still not wallowing in my problems. It’s a difficult place to be. What is the fine line between remorse and mourning? After the apology isn’t accepted, what else can one do to show you have recognized your error? I’m lost and battling deep sadness as a result, because I feel like my remorse is most evident when I ponder upon the consequences of my actions, but the more I think about that, the more I sink into mourning.
As you’ve probably guessed by now, I’m not at Liberty to speak on what is plaguing my peace at the moment but I do ask that you pray for me. Pray that I will be allowed to smile once again, that I will be able to express joy without fearing that I will be misunderstood.
Till next time,
Dr. ETP xo