No clickbait around here guys; this really happened.
Okay so backstory right?
I was your regular teenage girl, that grew up in a Christian home, went to church and generally just tried to be perfect. I mean I tried. I’d promise to God each morning that I would do my best not to sin, but later in the day someone would ask me for the time and I’d reflexively answer with what I last saw on my watch because I felt it was probably still that time only to hear “actually it’s 1.40pm not 1.30pm” and just like that, I had said something which wasn’t true, meaning I had lied, meaning if rapture had happened at that very moment I wouldn’t have gone to heaven because I said the wrong time and all my striving to be good and Christian would have been in vain and I was doomed to hell and…
I very, very quickly became exhausted with this train of thought and decided the best thing would be to just die. Yup, small me that hadn’t even seen 1/4 of my life wanted to just quit whilst I was ahead because it felt futile to strive to be perfect in my own strength. Every time I wanted to be good, something would mess it up. So I wanted out. I knew suicide was a sin, so during family night prayers I’d ask for forgiveness of my sins but on my own each night I’d ask God not to wake me up the next morning so I would just go to Heaven once and for all: life looked pointless to me.
Looking back and knowing what I know about mental health, I can see that I was so close to a dangerous form of depression…and that’s what living under the law can do to you.
So are we ready for the good news?
We don’t live under the law anymore! Yes our good friend, Lord and most importantly SAVIOR – rescued us from the Law by FULFILLING it. (Matthew 5:17-18) My good friend Jesus basically said I understand this is difficult, so I’ll handle it – for Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes (Romans 10:4).
And regarding the alarms I had in my phone for praying for forgiveness every few hours in a day, yeah I’ve deleted those because Jesus sorted that out too:
“By the which will we are sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.”
Hebrews 10:10 KJV
Listennnnnnnnnn!!! The Bible didn’t say you are forgiven for the sins you did up until you gave your life to Christ, nor up until you asked for forgiveness! He said ONCE FOR ALL! Not just the people around when He was on earth – He said everyone including you, me and the children in the next generation!
In fact, he went further than just forgiveness, he ensured we are SANCTIFIED! Do you know how deep it is to be sanctified? Made pure? Nah that’s another blogpost entirely 😂
See I won’t lie, it took me years before I believed this could be true, I mean doesn’t it just sound too good to be true? But I can tell you my life is not the same anymore. I don’t long for death and I’m not afraid of the rapture because I know I’m secured! Being a Christian is far more enjoyable from this point of view and I can tell you for free that living a Christ-like life is much easier when you believe in what He did for you. Will you still slip up? Most likely. But will you stay in the dirt when you know you are Christ’s ambassador and He loves and wants the best for you all the time? The choice is yours.
Till next time,
Dr. ETP xo