My heart longs for you
My body longs for your embrace
My ears long for your soothing words
My soul longs for your ‘I love you’.
Everything in me longs for you
But I have to let you go…
I can’t hang on to you anymore
I have to let you go…
It would be wise to do so
So easy for my mouth to say,
But my heart?
My poor baby
Who gave you a part of her, dare I say the whole?
But now…
She cant figure out how to get it back
She does not know how to ask for it
The sight of you makes it hard to do so
Your eyes, she is trapped in them once again
She’s so lost in them she cant even speak
Even though you’re not embracing her,
She can feel your arms all around her
My poor baby
She’s tugging at me, asking me to still hang on
To give her time
“But there’s not much time heart” I said to her “we have to
go and NOW”
go and NOW”
“Baby if we don’t go now, you just might be irreparable” I
continued.
continued.
I hate to hurt her this way; I hate to pierce her with my
words
words
But I have to. I need to
I have to take her to the repairer of all repairers. The
best there is.
best there is.
“Baby” I tried to convince her “you have so many bruises, I
know someone who can help with that”
know someone who can help with that”
Then she looked up at me, I could feel myself breaking to
pieces
pieces
But I had to be strong for her, strong for us.
I had to show her that she needed to be strong too.
What I saw in her eyes, the hurt, the sense of betrayal…
I blinked back tears as I took her hands
Hands so fragile, so vulnerable she was, my heart
She started limping as she took tiny steps
So I carried her in my arms, cuddled her up
Then I began to take a step
With each step I took further from him, I found strength
Unspeakable strength
I turned to look at him once again
The one I desperately longed for.
And what I saw … what I saw?
I wanted to run back to him and him me
But we knew better
We knew I had to go
And so there I stood, looking at him and him me
Then I saw it
The tears trickling down his face… his already tear-stained
face
face
I wanted to reach and wipe it off
But we knew better than to do that.
I wanted to tell him that things would be okay, that I was
going for a while
going for a while
And that I’ll come right back to him in no time.
But again, we knew better.
I knew better.
There was a probability I was never coming back.
I wanted to scream at him to wait for me, but what
wickedness would that be?
wickedness would that be?
As much as I didn’t want to, I looked away from him.
My heart still in my arms, I walked on…
To the repairer…
The restorer…
After all, where else would I go than to Him?
Who else did I have?
He alone understands.
And so with every steep I took, I found strength
I walked on, with head held up high, and my back
straightened
straightened
I have a destination; I am going to meet Him
Take my bruised heart to Him, because He is going to fix it.
He is going to wipe every tear on my face, with just a
little stroke of his hands
little stroke of his hands
I am going to my father
I am His princess
I am going to the palace
I am going to my first love
The one who would never leave me nor forsake me
The one who would never let me go…
My first and only love
There I stood, at His gate. Unsure of what to do
He spotted me instantly.
I wonder how terrible I must have looked
With my bruised and bleeding heart in my arms
My love ran to me and kissed me on the forehead
“Beloved” he said with tears streaming down his golden eyes
“I love you”
“I love you”
With that, I knew I had come to the right person, the right
place
place
How could he possibly love me with the mess I looked like?
Blood stained, just how could He still love me?
But He was my first love, what else did I expect?
As if He could read my thoughts
He put a finger under my chin and lifted my head
Looking straight into my eyes
With a love so intense
A love so pure
A love so sincere
A love that surpasses all understanding
Jesus said, “I love you”.
